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Random posts about daily life.

2014

This blog hasn’t been updated in a long time. That’s OK, I suppose, since no one actually reads it. And why would they? There’s barely any content.

My parents and new me

Last year was extremely difficult. It hasn’t really stopped being difficult. After Shannon died in March, I found myself very alone with the entire thing, my feelings about it all and the incredible sadness that I felt. I really didn’t have anyone to talk to about it.

Then in June, my father died. It was very unexpected. Whether it makes a difference or not, I don’t know, but I do know that I was thrown so far off balance I doubt I will ever find proper footing again. And again, I found myself very alone. More alone I suppose because this was so utterly devastating to my world. I don’t think I’m ready yet to talk about it.

And then in November my aunt died. Again it was so very unexpected. The bottom had ripped out of my world in June and now someone was prying my fingers from the edges where I was desperately trying to hold on. And yet again, I was alone. And I am not ready to really talk about that either.

There is so much anger and pain and I suppose I am simply trying to sort through it and find new footing, different footing. Mostly I hold onto the words and the anchor that my friend Liz provided and I am grateful for her friendship beyond belief. I wish that we lived closer.

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Still here…

2013 has been quite rough so far. Things were very dark for awhile. The only bright spot being that I now have a dog. My birthday was probably the worst I’ve ever had. Then, of course, last month I got a call I never expected and found out that Shannon had died. I want to write about him or about my feelings but I find I can’t. I can’t talk about what happened. I guess I’m not ready. I haven’t really had the chance to deal with this because my attentions were pulled elsewhere. So I did what I do. I shoved it down so far I thought I was fine. Until I tried to tell someone what happened and found I could not speak. The words did not want to come. That’s when I realized that I wasn’t fine, I was just doing a very good job pretending. This is not that time where I write my feelings out. I may never share them publicly. I may never share them at all. I wish I could have been in Philadelphia this weekend. I wish I could have been around certain friends last month or that some people had bothered to reach out. None of that matters now because it’s too late and I’ve said far more than I ever intended to say.

Here’s a picture of Angus. He was born September 21st, 2012.

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2013

Still here. Just quiet.

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Learning is Funtastic!

I put up a little widget over there on the left.  I decided to join Goodreads and they have a “reading challenge” where you can set a goal for however many books you want to read by the end of the year and then log them as you read them.  It’s mindless but nerdy fun. I just joined and set the goal at 20 and in that time since I’ve joined I’ve read 8 books.  To be fair several were manga and those read extremely fast.  But they’re books and they count.

I finished all of the books in the Alex Cross series and I really enjoyed it so now I’m trying to find something in a similar vein that I will be able to devour.  Summer just wouldn’t be summer without something to read in the sun!

I got a weird request to add personal information to my blog that I don’t want to add in order to not be confused with someone by the same name.  Honestly I would think my eloquent posts would actually work in anyone’s favour not against them.  Surely more so than a photo I was able to access a person pointing a gun into the face of another person.  Perhaps it’s just my giant ego talking but I hold 2 university degrees (and am working on a third), am a licensed teacher, and am able to construct sentences with proper grammar.  Who wouldn’t want to be mistaken for me?  I’m only half kidding.  I do apologize to the person in question but it was a bizarre request that I am not able to fulfill.  I do wish you luck!  There are worse things to be mistaken for than a gay manga reading, doll collecting, university graduate (twice over – did I mention that?), I’m sure!

Well, I need to put the sheets back on my bed and then I think I’ll probably read some more.  No, not gay manga!  I’m actually reading The Black Echo by Michael Connolly.  Slow build that could have potentially lost me but it’s starting to pick up now.  My attention span is not what it used to be and I need a lot of rapid action or I get bored.

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People are strange…

Yes indeed, they are.

They say time flies when you’re having fun but time seems to be flying regardless of whether or not I’m having fun.  I swear someday I’ll get my act together just not today.  Probably not tomorrow either.  But someday…  Who am I kidding?  I probably won’t!

I’m happy summer is here, well almost but the weather has gotten nice and it feels good to shake off the dust of winter.  There is nothing better than sitting outside and feeling the warm sun on my face.

But remember, always wear sunscreen!

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