Long day.  Worked from 8am to 10pm.  The only real break was the 15 minutes or so when I ate supper.  No one said this would be easy.  What gets me, what really gets me, is having someone make mine (and others) days that much harder.  It’s not like there was enough to deal with already or has been dealt with.  Seriously, fail at life some more.  Anyway, so it goes.  Bumping along the road, a little worse for the wear these days but I just have this feeling, deep down, it will all pay off and then some.  Those who laugh last, laugh loudest, n’est ce pas?

For years and years I have said I wanted to learn to sew.  I have said I wanted a sewing machine.  Well, today is my birthday and my parents bought me a sewing machine.  I’m so happy!  I haven’t the slightest idea how to make things but this is the first step in learning.  Besides, this is the kind of gift that I’ll always have a use for.  Even if I don’t turn out to be a sewing goddess (but really, what are the chances I won’t?  I mean c’mon, this is me we’re talking about and I am golden), I will still be able to use it for things like hemming my short person pants because at 5’1″ tall, I have a lot of hemming to do!

I’m looking forward to March break because now I have two things to occupy my time, photography and learning to sew.  I may have mentioned this before, maybe not, but my great-aunt was a seamstress for Saks.  I feel very strongly that it’s in my genetics to be able to sew and all I need to do is learn and that will shine through.  I think if I’m driven enough, I can’t be wrong.  I’m never wrong.  Never.

Also, I’m very excited to say I’ve discovered a new singer, Yael Naim.  Her voice is so clear and pure, it’s like glass and it makes me very happy.  Also, I really enjoy listening to Hebrew, even if I can’t understand it.   I’m going to buy her cd tomorrow.

Once upon a time, a long time ago, in a gallexy far, far away, on this very day, I was born.  What a long, strange trip it’s been!

There’s a time to turn it on.

But still your time runs out…

I feel like I have no time for anything these days.  Life is consumed with work.  I’ve never been good at dealing with that.  I need “me” time.  Time to decompress but also to pursue my interests.  I feel like everything that is important is taking the back burner.  I rarely get the chance to take pictures.  Of course, the winter has a lot to do with that.  It’s cold, there’s snow, I don’t like it.  I’m finding though, that I have this desire that is almost an ache, to take pictures so I’m going to have to find a way to satisfy that despite the work and the cold and the snow.

My birthday is just a few weeks away.  Unfortunately Kate works that weekend so any birthday fun is being had the next weekend.  On the plus side my birthday is on a Friday and I think after work that day I’m going to be all about me.  I don’t know what I’ll do but having dinner with my parents somewhere and watching movies all night sounds like a plan.  It’s not really different from any other weekend except that I’ll insist on being treated special.  And perhaps having a cupcake.  I’m not a big fan of cake in general, or sweets at all really but I’m thinking a cupcake may be in order.

I could probably blog a little longer, ramble about this and that but I’m heading out for coffee with Kate in a few minutes so this is where I’ll end things.  I’ve got to say, I see good things on the horizon.  They’re not exactly clear yet but they’re getting there.